I will be AWP-less this year because I have been too ill of health to risk the travel. Specifically, I'm having anxiety problems. I bring this up for a few reasons, even though I'm usually really disinclined to bring it up: I should be more okay than I am with feeling like an acute anxiety attack is a valid reason for wanting to take it easy (I don't allow myself that usually, which is how the attacks get worse or don't go away swiftly) and I need to remember for the next time this happens that this was significant enough that I had to cancel big plans. My anxiety attacking is typical of major upheaval and positive change (go figure!). Because I don't have any kind of an anxious disposition, these episodes are always a shock and unwieldy, and I do everything I can to dismiss them and move on, which doesn't always have the intended affect. I need to take care of myself when something of this nature strikes. And that's what I'm going to do: I've got Twin Peaks and no day-work for a week.
Bright side: I approved the web proof of my little prose piece "Van's Friend in the City" for Anomalous this past week! Anomalous Press is beautiful, I can't wait to see the new issue (their first anniversary issue!) and I am filled with the vastly preferable anticipation-esque anxiety for their future projects. Also, my remark about Tiny Furniture is appearing soon on the Rumpus! I wouldn't call it a review, and I intend to expound on my feelings about the film here after it goes up. I'm afraid the piece comes off as negative, but I really enjoyed what the film provoked in my viewing of it and am grateful for the occasion to explore the issues it raised for me.
Lastly and most ravishingly I begin soon not only the very very beautiful new full-time job I have mentioned before but also now I am a payrolled part-time writer/reporter! I am going to roll out the details once I've put myself in order. I am so lucky. When I left my badge at the security desk at my now ex-job on Friday, I was the envy of all, and they didn't even know where I was headed.